Title: Missing
Author: Chelsi Robichaud
Publisher: NineStar Press
Release Date: 04/29/2025
Heat Level: 1 – No Sex
Pairing: No Romance
Length: 50100
Genre: Contemporary, Genre/lit, contemporary, family-drama, bisexual, lesbian, dissociative personality, therapist, musician, cult leader
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Description
Kate wakes up in her kitchen, having no idea where she had been for five hours. The only clue she has is a note she left for herself on her desk, stating that she was going to see someone named Naomi.
With some investigation, she discovers Naomi is a therapist she has been seeing for months to discuss her blackouts and dissociation. However, she hasn’t been attending the sessions as Kate, but under a different name: Veronica.
Once she realizes she is experiencing dissociation, Kate takes a deep dive into her life, trying to uncover her alters and make peace with the people she shares a headspace with.
As she unlocks secrets hidden even from herself, she has the support of her best friend, Brielle, and her therapist, but not everyone is out to help her.
Excerpt
Missing
Chelsi Robichaud © 2025
All Rights Reserved
October 2022
Sheets of rain poured down from the sky. I moved through the crowds of people. The raindrops hit the ground rhythmically like drums, drowning out the sound of footsteps.
I sighed in relief as I made it to the shelter of my home. Nobody greeted me on the road. Everyone was probably inside, where it was warm. I was unfazed by the cold.
When I got inside, I found a clear patch of floor near the kitchen and lay down. I wasn’t sure how long I lay there. I didn’t even check the time when I came in.
“What’s going on with you?” Mike asked in horror when he walked through the door.
I was curled up on the floor, my hair and clothes completely soaked from the rain. I shook my head. “I don’t know.”
“You’re sitting on the floor. Come on, honey, get up.” He helped me stand. “What were you thinking, lying down on the floor? Why didn’t you get changed?”
“I don’t know.”
“Where have you been?”
I bit my lip, hard enough to draw blood. I didn’t want to say “I don’t know” a third time, but I really had no explanation for why I was where I was.
Mike guided me to the couch. He fetched a towel and put it down so I wouldn’t soak the furniture. “Here, sit down.” I sat. “What’s the last thing you remember?”
“I remember walking to the apartment,” I said. “I remember it raining.”
“And before that?”
“Not much.” I looked down at my fingers, pruned from the dampness. “I must’ve been out for hours.”
“The last time you texted me was at 2:00,” he said. “It’s 7:00 now.”
Five hours. I had five hours unaccounted for. My head spun. How could I have just forgotten what I was up to for five hours?
Mike must have sensed my impending panic. He pressed his hands to either side of my shoulders. “We’ll figure this out.”
I took out my phone. Mike had tried calling me during the time I had been out. “Missing” almost felt more appropriate—although at this point it seemed I had been missing even to myself. I scanned my text messages to see if there were any conversations I had opened while I was out. Nothing. I hadn’t talked to anyone—I had just disappeared, and my memories went with me.
“Do you think we could retrace your steps?” he asked. “The last thing you told me was that you were going to do groceries today. By the looks of the kitchen, though, you didn’t get to it.”
“Guess not,” I muttered. I was entirely depleted of energy. I wanted to sleep, but the anxiety of not knowing where I was for most of the day kept me awake.
“Let’s get you out of these wet clothes and into something warmer, okay?”
I got up from the couch and followed Mike into the bedroom. I stripped off my wet clothes. He took them and tossed them into the dryer. I picked out a comfortable pair of sweatpants and a plain black T-shirt.
I noticed a note sitting on my bedroom desk. It was written in a hand I didn’t recognize. The desk had been tidied, too. I must have cleaned it before I left. The note read: Going out to see Naomi. Be back before dark.
I sat down at the desk and read the note again. I didn’t have any friends named Naomi. But it only made sense that I had written this note before I blacked out.
I picked up my phone and searched through my contacts. Naomi. I found her. Her area code was local. Which meant I really had gone out to meet with her.
“Babe,” I called.
Mike shot into the room. “What’s up? You need a doctor?”
“I don’t know yet,” I said. “Look at this note.”
He stood behind me and read over my shoulder. “Who’s Naomi?”
“That’s what I’m trying to figure out.” I showed him my phone. “She’s in my contacts. But I have no idea who she is.”
Mike pressed a hand to his chin. He paused for a few moments, thinking. “Should we…call her?”
“I can at least text her,” I said.
Me: Hi. This is Kate.
Naomi: You left in a hurry. Everything OK?
“So, you were with her,” he said. “This is great. Maybe she can tell us why you were out for so long.”
How could I have been out with a new friend all day and not remember a thing? It didn’t make any sense.
Me: I don’t remember meeting you. How did we get in touch?
I watched as Naomi typed, then stopped. Eventually, my phone chimed as a text came through.
Naomi: I think you need to tell Mike about your dissociation.
Me: Is that what you call the blackout? Were you with me when it happened?
Naomi: Go check your desk drawer for the journal. It might help.
I pushed back my desk chair to get to the drawer. When I pulled it open, I spotted the journal right away. It was black and green, with a Celtic knot on the cover.
“I remember buying this journal online, but I haven’t filled it out yet,” I said. “I bought it to write music in.”
“Let’s see.” I could hear a note of fear in Mike’s tone.
I opened the journal. A page had been filled.
“I don’t remember writing this.” But even as I said it, I knew there was no other possibility. It was my handwriting. I checked the most recent entry. It was from the beginning of the week.
October 17th, 2022
Things are getting worse. Hard to handle. I’m not sure when I should tell Mike about this—Veronica thinks it’s best he stays out of it. She always had an issue with him, though. Thinks that he can’t be trusted. I don’t know why she feels this way. It might be a trauma reaction. Jer thinks that he’ll be receptive to it all. I have no way of knowing. I’m thinking of going to visit Naomi to talk it all out. She’s always been supportive.
The sound of clothes tumbling in the dryer was all that could be heard. I let out my breath with a deep exhale. Mike’s brows were knit together in concern.
“You don’t remember writing any of this?” he asked.
“Not a word.”
“Who’s Veronica? And Jer?”
“I have no idea.” I pressed a hand to my forehead. My head was pounding. I felt like memories were dancing on the edge of my conscious mind, but they were too far out of my reach to fully understand. “The names mean something to me, but I don’t know what.”
Mike crossed his arms in front of his chest. “Why would one of your friends think I shouldn’t be trusted? We’ve been together for months now. I don’t think I’ve done anything to warrant that.”
“Me neither,” I said, and meant it. Things had been good between Mike and me ever since we’d started dating.
Mike took the journal from me and closed it. “Let’s explore this more tomorrow, okay? I think you need some rest. I’m sure you’ll remember everything once you’ve slept a bit.”
I wished I shared his certainty. It wasn’t like I had forgotten to pick up the milk at the store—I had forgotten almost an entire day, and there were now three people in my life who apparently knew far more about me than I knew about them.
“How can I sleep right now knowing I’ve essentially been leading a double life?” I asked. “None of this makes sense, and I don’t recognize any of those people. I don’t even know who Naomi is. What if they’re dangerous?”
“I don’t think you’d make friends with dangerous people.” Mike did his best to comfort me.
“But if neither of us know, then how can we be sure?”
He hugged me. “I don’t know, babe. I don’t know. But we’ll figure it out together, okay? I just don’t want you to overwhelm yourself. Not when I just found you on the floor.”
I checked my phone one final time before heading to bed.
Naomi: Tell Kate everything will be OK.
I wondered who she was, and how exactly she knew that.
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Chelsi Robichaud writes and resides in Halifax, Nova Scotia. She publishes sapphic romance and fantasy novels. She has also self-published two comics. You can find Chelsi on Twitter
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